cancer
growths
or natural failure

birth defect
only now detected
or something worse
i fear

thoughts of my children
fatherless

perfect love casts out fear
yet i can’t seem to find
love perfected

time drags slowly
got to keep busy
don’t take time to feel

when i do
it hurts

afraid to die

maybe

more afraid for my family

i want to see them grow up

can’t i watch
from this side
of
heaven