the chase began years ago
pushing and driving
my heart ached for her love
craved for her love
but i was kept distant
not knowing the cause

too many differences
i often heard said
but love kept me chasing
wanting something just out of reach
teasing and tormenting

why didn't i see it
what couldn't i hear
no matter what i did
it never worked
no never
yet i chased

for years my heart was torn
and crying for her
longing for her love
a love never truly reciprocated

why didn't i just turn away
i couldn't or wouldn't
i kept chasing
a dreamer's dream
and the hope of a fool

i stayed and tried
in my heart i cried
but time marches on
the healer of all wounds
but is it really a healing
or simply love forgotten
as life hardens the heart

forgotten
locked away in the recesses
dark corners of the soul
lie the memories of smiles
the leaping of my heart
that only she could give

dormant but there
forever hidden away
will they ever see the light again

i'm moving on
on to the life that pulls at me
never letting me alone
to rest or reminisce
of the lost lovers hold

the chase has now ended
and I think she feels it too
my heart wants to say yes
but my feet are like clay
refusing the chase
molding my days
into nothingness

she could have had my heart
she could have had me
craving the power that held me
spellbound
but she lost that control over me

i could have been all hers
i wanted to be had
but those moments are gone
and i've stopped chasing

i've given in and given up
yielding the race to others
my love for her haunts me
like a spector from my past

i can tell that it bothers her
but i wonder what hurts
knowing that she can't have me
or that i've stopped persuing
my opinion i keep hidden
locked with the memories of her

the love is still there
tucked carefully away
protected, cherished, maybe blinded
but still love
i will always love her

casting my eyes down
i work my way home
like that rose in the snow
my heart lies bleeding
crimson in the cold